Idler

08:43 pm: 48 hr Marathon
Yesterday was the start of what is another record breaking feat for Dr William Tan. After breaking countless records for paraplegic, he is now breaking his own record of 24hrs of wheeling non stop. The event which is sponsored by the company is held at the ITE College at Simei. He is to wheel round the track for a period of 48 hrs, I'm not sure if htere will be stops inbtween but then again its great of him to do that. HE's trying to raise funds for Singapore Cancer Society. However, I just wonder do we need to go through such things to raise funds? Do we need to put other people's lives in danger(President's Challenge) just for us to contribute a few dollars for the needy? Afterall the money is being donated to the same organisation by the same people who contributed them. Can't we just put that amount without needing them to go through such danger? Anyways what do I know...........

Some pics I took while running alongside Dr William Tan and my GM..........


My GM on a bike and Dr Tan on his wheelchair


Dr Tan


My colleague after the run


Some of the crowd


THe whole event will end Sunday 9pm........

07:56 pm: Hacked
My Friend's website just got hacked!!!!!!!!! And I've been getting lotsa junk mails!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
http://issimple.com/

11:34 am: My Place

10:13 pm: On The Moon
You know I care for you
But pretend and lead me on, That's all you do
I tried to still believe, but now I'm through
And the only place I see is callling out to me
It's the only place I know
It's the place where I must go

On the Moon
That's where you'll find me soon
I'll be alone again but that's ok
I must on my own again
But I'll be waiting on the Moon for you

I'll sit and reminisce for many hours
I'll miss the rain and all the pretty flowers
I'll dream of all the cities and their towers
And I'll hope you wonder why
I'm living in the sky
I'll even let you in for free
If you come and visit me

Would you ever even dream
To go to the extreme?
Would you ever wanna be
The one to rescue me?

On the Moon
That's where you'll find me soon
I'll be alone again but that's ok
I must on my own again
But I'll be waiting on the Moon for you

- Peter Cincotti

02:59 am:

I am Strength Strength represents patience and compassion. Getting angry is easy when events turn sour, but dealing calmly with frustration takes great strength. So does accepting others and forgiving mistakes. We need strength to mold situations softly. The Chariot controls through mastery and authority. Card 8 is more subtle, even loving. Notice how the lion (itself a symbol of strength) is being guided and tamed by the woman's gentle hands. For a full description of your card and other goodies, please visit LearnTarot.com

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I am The Chariot The Chariot often appears when hard control is or could be in evidence. At its best, hard control is not brutal, but firm and direct. It is backed up by a strong will and great confidence. The Chariot can mean self-control or control of the environment. This card also represents victory. There are many types of wins; the Chariot's is of the win-lose type. Your success comes from beating the competition to become number one. Such moments are glorious in the right circumstances. For a full description of your card and other goodies, please visit LearnTarot.com

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The Chariot!!!!!!!!! How eeeeeeerie can that be hehehhe.

01:04 am: Fairytale
"I have forgotten how long was it,
Since I last heard you,
Telling me your favorite story,
I have been thinking for a very long time,
I’m beginning to feel paranoid,
Did I make any mistakes again?

You came and tell me with the tears in your eyes,
That fairytales are all lies,
It’s impossible for me to be your prince charming,
Maybe you will not understand,
After the moment when you said you loved me,
The stars in my sky, are beginning to shine and shimmer.

I’m willing to be, the angel you love,
In the fairytales,
Open my arms wide,
And let it become wings, to protect you,
You have to believe,
Believe that we will be like the fairytale,
With happiness and joy as the ending."

03:06 am: Bizarre
I read this entry from this site http://www.samizdata.net/blog/archives/007744.html and found it rather bizarre. In the year 1981, Prince Charles got married, Liverpool won the European Champions Cup and the Pope died. THen this year Prince Charles got married(again), Liverpool was crown European Champions(again) and the Pope died. How coincidental can that be. Next time must warn the Pope liao heheheh.

11:44 am: I went to watch A Nation in Concert last night. I'm so very glad that Floridaboy and his team managed to pull it through. I felt very very bad that I can't help him out. I played him out BIG time this time round. I was in the organising committee but had to pull out due to work and relationship committment. I then promised him that I'll be helping him out when the day gets nearer as stage hand or something like that. I bubbled him again. I've been missing up in the projects eversince late last year. I don't know what I've been doing lately. Sorry EK.

My dad fell twice over these two days at home. Luckily from somewhere low. First he was on the daybed and he tried to reach out to close the Quran after reading it. I was in my study when I heard a small thud and I rushed over to see him on the floor. I've always told him not to reach out for something without first calling for me. Luckily it wasn't bad. Then this morning it was shower time. After showering him I reached out for the towel and he again tried to reach out for the tap. He toppled over and I managed to catch him just before he hit the ground. FOr his shower I sat him on a stool. I've yet to get all the required equipment for now since he's only on home leave. WIll get all of these when he's fully discharge which will be this coming Wed. Gosh I'm so worried.

10:32 am: Trying moments
These few weeks have been very trying for me. Personal issues at home dragging from beginning of the year luckily it has been settled last month. Then the dad and now the home. I have to sell this place of mine to get something smaller so that it'll be easier for my dad. He's predicted to be discharge on the 17th so I'm busy getting the home ready for his return ensuring the safetiness of it. Then yesterday I received a call from the doc saying they saw fresh blood stains on his stool and asked if my family has any history of cancer and asks for my consent to do some sigmoidscopy to check what causes the bleeding. For that age it is scary to even have a satin of blood. It know it may be nothing but still another fear. Well such is life again. Thanx for the usual friends who's been there for me all these while. Sorry that I can't join u guys as much as before...........soon ya soon. No tatiana it is soon not Soon!!!!!!!! ;p

12:28 pm: Disappointed yet again
I had my dad home last weekend and it wasn't that easy a task. It's not easy leaving him alone for fear he might fall off the bed. Lay him on the floor you say? I thought of that but it will be tougher for him and me for maneouvering. Well I laid him on the daybed so he can watch the tv and listen to his songs. The Uncle and his family came to visit sometime after dinner and left about 830pm. We just sat down to talk after and plan what's to come next.

Sunday I went out to get food. Rushed out and back as fast as I could. Then later on in the day my sis came with her kids bringing with her food. Had a little more talk then she left. Earlier on I received a call from a friend saying that he has the car for the day. I was like great so I can get him to help me transport my dad back to the hospital later in the evening. Initially I was wondering if I can get his help to get us lunch since he's already in town but he said he gotta run some errands so fine. Next thing I knew he was having coffee(1st disapoointment). Then later on I asked if he still has the car. He said yes and that he's playing some tennis with friends. So I said ok and was wondering if he can help me. There was silence after that and eversince. Well now I guess i know I where I stand in the priority list. I guess I know I'm not supposed to feel like this but I guess coming from a close friend it just feels like banging the wall heheheh.

12:47 pm: Love
"True Love is not loving a perfect person,
but love an imperfect person..........perfectly"

04:46 pm: The dad is back for the weekend and there goes my weekend freedom. I reached the hospital sometime after 1 and was told by the nurses that he was very excited since morning about going home. In fact he insisted that he is going back in the morning. Well we took a cab home and the first hurdle was easily overcame. Reached home and lay him down on the daybed. He requested to have his music of prayers to be played and so it was like that for the next hour or so while I did the laundry. Sometime past 4 he called me and wanted to shower. That was where I'm a bit terrified. Back in the hospital there is somewhat of a chair and the nurses will do the rest but here it's just moi. So I got a chair and placed it in the shower room and hoping that the chair won't be that slippery. It's not that we are not ready for this but we are not buying these equipments till he is fully discharge.......which is like damn in 10 days time!!!!!!!!

I pushed him on his wheelchair to as near the shower as I could and made him walk the ret of the short distance. Well walk as in he's leaning on me most of the time I'm lifting him up now and then. I guess I can cancel my gym membership now heheh. Strip him and showered him. Next I realised I didn't take a towel. Running as fast as I could hoping that he won't fall off the chair I got him the towel and dry him off. Next came the diapers........I was like oh no!!!!!!! SO I told him lets just forget about the diapers and to inform me if he needs to go to the toilet and I'll bring him there instead. It's cleaner I guess heheheh. So I just let him wear the sarong that he wanted and placed him on his bed for him to do his prayers. Now he's on his bed hopefully feleing fresh and contented while I'm wet from sweat and the water that he accidentally sprayed. Gotta rest for now before .........oh no NOTHING FOR DINNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10:43 am: A Nation in Concert
One Voice: By the People, For the People



Featuring:

Chermaine Ang as Won’t, the grub

Darius Tan as Can’t, the slug

Pierre Goh as Daren’t, the ladybird

Tony Quek as Mr.Bumble Bee

Christina Sergeant as Auntie Stick Insect

Timothy Nga as Madam Spider

Karen Tan as Female Praying Mantis

Hatta Said as Male Praying Mantis

Timothy Go as Newscaster Bug



An exuberant, visually exciting (costumes not to be missed) must-see for all Singaporeans this National Day week!



Come watch familiar stars Chermaine, Darius and Pierre transform into three self-centred, spoilt, kisasu/kisasee bugs in the Garden City who simply "can't", "daren't" and "won't" help any of the other different bugs who are in need of help.



Get these burning questions answered at A Nation In Concert:



- Will our femme fatale praying mantis really, really go vegetarian, and forgo eating up her next boyfriend?

- And will Madam Spider get her web fixed by these three whiny bugs, or will she have to deploy her troop of hunky army ants?

- will the bad-boy housefly be a hero and get his girl in the end?



Come laugh, cheer and be entertained by our real stars our fellow "differently-abled" (it's time we stopped calling them "disabled") Singaporeans who want to celebrate Singapore with us.



Come join us for A Nation In Concert - the fun's starting up soon!



Well-loved stage director: Jonathan Lim of ‘Chestnuts’ fame.

Award-winning playwright: Desmond Sim (Autumn Tomyum, Drunken Prawns)

Exquisite costume designer: Francis Louis Ler of Amor Meus.



Esplanade Concert Hall.

13 Aug (Sat) 05

3pm & 7:30pm



Get your ticket today at www.anationinconcert.com



With over a hundred of performers from:

Association for Persons with Special Needs (APSN),

Handicaps Welfare Association (HWA),

Singapore Association for the Deaf (SADeaf),

Singapore Association of the Visually Handicapped (SAVH),

Vox Camerata and many others.



In aid of these four volunteer welfare organizations and the Community Chest.

10:34 am: Home Leave
I've been going up and down the hospital to learn and to help out with the therapy. Over these 2 weeks or so my dad has been very determined to prove himself and to all that he can be back on his own 2 feet again. Seeing him struggle just to sit and walk makes my heart pain but that is the only way to recovery. He has made tremendous progress. He's able to balance himself once we sit him up. He's able to walk a short distance with a single support on his left as compared to the last time where he requires support on both sides. He's talking normally now without slurring. And for all his effort the doctor has granted him homeleave this weekend. We are excited and worried at the same time. We are going back to my sis for the time being. A lot of time and effort has been spent too at my sis to ensure that the place is safe for him. There he'll have enough attention from my nephews and niece and also there's the maid and my mom to be around while the rest of us are out at work. Well I hope things will turn out better.

PS: I think my dad loves me a lot as my mom told me the other day that the day I wasn't there he kept hearing my voice around and he kept asking for me...........Oh I've improved on my mahjong game. I used to just know how to finish and play the game but didn't know exactly the rule. But last week I was told of the rule of the game and I'm improving!!!!! hehheh

01:26 am: Attention
It is so tiring to keep giving others the attention but not receiving any..........

10:04 am: I slept like a baby last night. I only meant to take a nap at 9+ then to wake up about 1030 to meet some friends for coffee etc but I slept throughout not hearing any calls nor sms and next thing I knew it was 6am. 3 missed calls and 5 sms missed. Sorry you all. Last night's sleep was my longest ever for a very long time. I wouldn't be able to sleep till 1 or 2 then up by 8+. But last night I was out till 930 this morning.

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My dad is now tranferred to the rehab centre and the doc was saying that he may need to stay there for at least a month. He's gone for 2 therapy already and was complaining about the 2nd session which stretches for more than 3 hours and how tired he was and so on. I wasn't there and he was looking for me thoroughout, so I was told. My br-in-law stood in for me. As of now we are all taking turns and my dad is getting used to that. He kept looking for me. On Saturday my eldest sis told me to stay home and rest cos they will all be there. So I did. I called every hour just to check on his status. My sis told me dad kept asking for me and complaint to them that " See he didn't even bother to come......." Well can't make him too dependant on me though. He started smiling when I reached there sometime in the evening. I was there the whole of sunday and left him about 8. His blood sugar level seemed to be increasing yesterday. It was hovering somewhere in the 7 region but yesterday afternoon it went up to 10.2. That's rather high as the acceptable level should be somewhere 4 or 5. The nurse said it's probably the milo they offerred in the afternoon. They are monitoring now. His blood pressure has been stabilize though hovering in the region of 150-155 over 80-86. Hope he's felling better now and can sleep peacefully as compared to the previous room....

04:19 am: It's already 4 in the morning and I still can't sleep. I've done the laundry and all the dishes that was left behind before I left for hospital. Yet I still can't sleep................

09:45 pm: Time for Rehab
Yeah!!!!!!! We are gonna be out of the hospital soon. As of 0930 tomorrow morning my dad will be trasnferred from Tan Tock Seng HOspital to their Rehab Centre at Ang Mo Kio!!!! He's off all sorts of medication less for his High Blood which hovers around 170+/- without medication. Still rather high. With medication it can go as low as 130+. I went out this afternoon hoping to go home for a little more rest and get some stuff but detoured to town to give the Chimp a visit and pay the credit bill. Met up with Whale for coffee then head to the gym. On my way back to the hospital my mom called saying that my dad has been looking for me since 5. I was told the same thing as I stepped into the ward by the nurse. I guess I can't stay away for long. Wonder how it is gonna be when he's at the rehab. Gotta try talking to him else I have difficulty working. He somehow doesn't listen to my sisters nor my mom but is afraid and will listen to me. Even the nurse sometimes gets me to ask him thing like chewing his food and swallow em. He likes to pretend to sleep when he doesn't want to do something or if he doesn't want to talk to any visitors. Whatever it is I'm glad he's recovering rather fast just hoping that he will have more patient when it comes to his therapy. He can be rather impatient and cunning like pretending to move and rub his hand, next thing we knew the tube came off or the needle for his antibiotic was pulled. And all this he acted ignorant. I guess I'm learning his cunningness heheh.

11:11 am: The dad is able to hold his packet drink and drink on his own. He's been sitting up on his own but occasionally tilt to the left. Needs time to get his balance again. This morning the doc came in and told me his blood pressur eis stable but will be on medication. Apparently lately my mom's BP is higher than my dad's. She needs to to worry less.

My dad is to be transferred to AMK Rehab for his rehabilitation but due to shortage of beds as they are renovating he's staying here. But I checked with the doc this morning and he said he may be discharge till the bed in AMK Rehab is available. I'm glad to hear that. My sis and I have been thinking of altenatives for his discharge and we have decided that he is staying over at my sis for the time being since my nephews will be around to keep him company and also there's her maid to help out. Subsequently we will be all be staying together as her place isn't big enough to accommodate all of us. Anybody looking for a housemate?

02:45 am: Don't know why but all of a sudden loneliness creeps in.............

All alone tonight
I'm calling out your name
Somewhere deep inside
This part of you remains
Images of love
Take me back in time

I don't know how it started
Why it ever had to end
But something stepped inside
We didn't let it end
It's keeping us apart
Where are you now

Where are you now
Someone there tonight
Holding what was mine
Where are you now
You wonder where I am
I need you here tonight

-Jimmy Harnen